Video killed the Radio Star

I purchased a webcam yesterday. It’s pretty neat and funny at the same time. A lot of people I have been chatting with were bugging the heck out of me to give them permission to view my webcam.

I found I can only allow 3 people view at a time otherwise my system gets really bogged down.

For you perverts out there, I don’t know what you’re expecting me to do, but there are other sites you can go to for that kind of junk! Even if I did that offer a peep-show, you’d have to pay $100 for just one viewing of my webcam! Rofl NON-REFUNDABLE!

AND if you have a heart attack because my big white fat ass scared you to death, you still do not get your money back!

Work Work

Temp is not working out… I’m not a happy camper. They said she had experience, but she didn’t. Last year when I hired a couple of temps, they were awesome… they may not have had experience, but they took the initiative to learn on their own within the first two days they worked. I miss Eleanor & Collette… not only were they very good employees… they became very good friends.

The problem of being a boss is you have to divide the line between work and personal matters… most people can’t do that. Most people feel very uncomfortable and don’t want to be casual around the boss. So, much to my dismay, my friendships run far and few between.

Lunchola

Lunch was really good, really really good- but it kind of left me with heartburn. Maybe because I’ll be starting my monthly next week… I’m just a wee sensitive.

My Lonesome

I feel terribly lonely… you know how you can have family & friends love you to death… but you still feel incredibly lonely? Like something’s missing… I suddenly got that feeling today. I have no idea what it could be… I have a wonderful job, although I would like to move- I have a nice roof over my head, wonderful pets… I am meeting new people… I enjoy my studies… what in the world is missing?

I have a vision of fire burning in my heart…smoldering with passion…
but the spark that ignited the flame seems artificially fashioned…
possibly stolen in some way… unnatural… impure and not originally intended for me.

This makes me terribly sad.

Snarl, Snooze & Sultry

More photos, I'm at work, not wanting to work... but working a little. hehe

New temp came in today, she seems nice enough. The temp agency said she had two years experience, however I'm learning differently. *sigh* Does anybody actually do what their resume says? Have they ever done anything their resume says?

What’s unique about her is both her hands only have 3 fingers each. Pinky, ring, and thumb. Didn’t stop me from shaking her hands though… doesn’t bother me at all. She’s just the first person I’ve seen in real life with a birth defect like that.

I’ve got her designing a Christmas postcard to see if I can actually work with her. I can teach her what I need her to know… but she needs to have some creative vision of her own.

Anyway… we’ll see.

I’m headed out to lunch, laters!

Saturday Night Fever

Night Fever - Night Fever! We know how to do it!

I have new friends! Yay me! They are great, very attractive peoples. The conversations were very nice. I hope to meet up with them again soon… VERY SOON. hehe

We met up Downtown FW and had dinner & drinks. I had a couple margaritas… with a couple of shots… so yes… I’m a wee hung over this morning.

Nothing as bad as when I last went out with sister.

Speaking of sister… she was calling me, I couldn’t really hear her and didn’t want to be rude to new friends… so I let her go… she hung up on me! Did I make her mad? I donno… somehow my password to the interest was not in the login screen, and she wanted it… I didn’t find that out until I was on my way home though, and the friends were text messaging me. Oops! I’m sure she was quite irritated at that.

Sister has an on-line beau, I’m sure she was eager to chat with.

Dreaming Away

Dreams were everywhere last night. Dreamt about my date with friends… dreams about my studies… about my bedroom… my pets…

They were tequila dreams rofl. But hey- they did not include ex! Yay!

Speaking of ex… ex was trying to contact me this past Wednesday… sheesh… I just kept telling him to fuck off, repeatedly. I guess he finally gave up on that and wrote me hate email saying I have some personality disorders. I told him if he emails, calls or anything I was going to file a complaint against him. He said he was not a rat bastard… but I told him yes he was, a rat bastard stalker.

Turkey Turkey Turkey

Oh my... turkey pot pie!

Bleh! Who didn't eat too much? Who didn't have that piece of pie when you knew your belly just couldn't handle it? hehe

I hope everyone had a good turkey day. I hope everyone took wonderful naps and are completely lazy today! Kisses and hugs!

My Babies

Wanna see my babies?

Introducing George, my beloved dog and his girls Smokie and Shadow.

Yes, I said his girls. George loves cats! He's a feline stuck in a canine body.

Anyway… enjoy!

Getting Use to Change

Well... this has been quite the pain in my rear. Getting use to different passwords, new email accounts... blah blah, blah blah.

I'm still so very angry... but that rat bastard doesn't deserve anymore of my energy... even if it is negative.

Work Work

Left work early today. Temp will not be returning. I need someone with more experience in the graphics industry. She was very nice, and did help me... but taking over this website means that I need someone capable of creating wonderful graphics on their own.

A new temp will be starting Monday, after the Holiday. She has a background in graphic design.

Shocked Sister

So I shocked my sister today =). It was really strange... but I let her in on a little secret about how naughty I can be. Being that I'm her little sister, she was quite shocked and at the same time upset that I felt like I couldn't be completely open with her.

If you could see the looks on her face, you might understand why I'm not giving out free information. But she asked me a question and I told her.

Don't do that... I just can't seem to lie. If you ask me a question, no matter how much I don't want to answer it... I feel compelled to speak the truth! I'm a very brutally honest person... I tend to offend people with it.

I try to dodge the question... I'm good at that... but if you ask me directly- I will tell you.

So, if you don't want to know, don't ask... because I say it like it is.(or how I view it anyway ;)

I love you all, and hope you have a safe, happy holiday. Don't sweat the little stuff and enjoy the company of friends and family while you can.

Violated by EX

Ex is totally freaking me out! OMGS! Who knows how long the fucker has been snooping through my email.

He's stalker like!

How freaked out am I?! Like I have never been freaked out before. You know he can think I’m am a slutty whore for all I care, but to know he’s been virtually following me around, poking in my business WAY TO FUCKING MUCH.

Needless to say EVERYTHING in my little world has to be changed now and I feel so incredibly violated.

Know this…

I’ve never been ashamed of me. I’ve never been ashamed of any of the decisions I have ever made… NEVER!

I Feel So Fucking Violated!

Belly Aching

Ate too much at our office luncheon today. There was just soOo much to choose from... how could I resist but take a bite out of each item... even if they didn't agree with each other?

*buRp* I know I'll be regretting this in a few.

Anyway… took another photo of me today. Why? Because I felt like it. I’m wearing green eye shadow, opposed to the blue I usually wear.

That's all... going to go belly ache some more.

Did I mention…

Did I mention that my 16-year-old nephew is learning how to play Moonlight Sonata? It’s heavenly… even if he’s just learning.

About 2 years ago, I found an upright piano at a thrift store for $139.00. I fell in love with it instantly. It’s always been a dream of mine, since I was a wee little girl, to own my very own piano. I HAD to get it.

The wood finish needs touch up, a couple of the keys have cracked tips, and it was very out of tune… but all in all it was a steal!

I paid $75 to have it tuned and plan to refinish the piano slowly. I want the dark cherry wood look, but I’m still thinking… maybe a rich midnight blue… that would be so cool.

Anyway, I’ve been playing the electric keyboard since I was 12- all self taught… and I still to this day can’t follow sheet music, but I’ve never bothered to seriously learn. The music I play flows through my body like the poetry I write. It just comes… from my soul.

Again, another expressive means to reflect my feelings. I have made tapes and allowed friends to listen, some of which never believed it was me playing until I performed for them. As is my art, my music is very personal- so only a select few have seen me play, with the exception of my family- who has heard me bang on things making tunes since I was a little girl.

I have this electric keyboard (at one point, I owned 3 and use to midi all together for great symphonic movements- now I have 2 that I rarely use since I got the real piano)… where was I… oh yeah… I have this electric keyboard that teaches you how to play songs… and my nephew asked if he could play it one day. He started trying to learn various songs… it’s always heavenly to hear young people learn music… in any form. I suggested he learn how to play Moonlight Sonata… my favorite piece in the world… and he is.

I myself never learned it because as I always had a tendency to make my own music… maybe I’ll have my nephew teach me as he goes.

Uh Oh!

I didn’t blog yesterday! Did you miss me? *snort*

Anyway… I spent the majority of the day skimming through my new books. I started to write a blog… but then I got sidetracked writing an At A Glance book review…

After that I got distracted making a Disco Room in MuX.

Work Work

I’m soOo not in the mood to work. Blah! Good thing this week is just a 3 day week!

Boring!

Nothing exciting going on so fart, er I mean far… *snort* Maybe something fun will happen at lunch… though I doubt it.

I’ll post more junk later.

We have Contact

We have Contact

So I signed up on a major Pagan community site and contacted 3 people to see about corresponding and possibly meeting. Mainly over a common path, I am looking for people to learn with and share ideas.

One contacted me back already and that excited me. To be able to share/discuss learning face to face, finally! Yay!

Thanks Samantha, your suggestion made me sign up.

Anyhoo…

I spoke to ex yesterday… I know, I know… but I felt the need to get a point across to him… we are never getting back together.

He wanted to speak to me to apologize for being hateful, déjà vu…
Seems he can’t help but read my blog and posts at TC. He doesn’t want me writing about him… and he doesn’t understand how I seem to be moving on. Blah blah.

So… thanks to that call, I had a dream about him. I was at his place and he had 3 different girl friends. They were kicking me, beating me with chains and hating me. Then, a while later- they finally started to get to know me. They started to like me and apologize for beating me up and couldn’t believe that ex didn’t want me in his life. Couldn’t believe what he did to me… all the while, ex was not home- not until the end. And when he came walking through the door, the girls started beating on him.

It was a strange dream… it turned into me driving a van (I have never in my life driven a van) down an alleyway in Dallas. There was a young Mexican boy in a little stand selling miscellaneous items. Books, jewelry and other junk. He was holding up a book titled ‘TAURUS’ and I stopped. I really wanted his book, but for some reason I didn’t buy it.

I started looking at his wares and really liked what he had to sell. We talked a bit, and I offered to help sell his stuff on my website.

Bookstore Bonanza!

Sister and I went to 2 different bookstores today… I purchase around $100 in books.
The books I’ve added to my library are:

Drawing down the Moon by Margot Adler
The Illustrated Guide to Divination by Judy Hall (I liked this book because it has a little info on many forms of divination)
To Light a Sacred Flame by RavenWolf
How Psychic Are You? By Julie Soskin (I got this book because it has exercises in it that appealed to me.)
The Crystal Handbook by Kevin Sullivan
365 Goddess byPatricia Telesco (About various goddesses around the world)
Mary Summer Rain’s Guide to Dream Symbols

I also got a 2005 Witches Datebook
And some assorted notecards themed Griffin&Sabine, a fiction book letter series by Nick Bantock.

Yes, I did spoil myself today.

Studies

I’ve been studying Mexican Deities and mythology. I find I don’t really care for it much. But, I will go into it more on tomorrows blog.

Wee Wittle Weekend

Today has been a stressful day already! But it’s FRIDAY, and it’s PAYDAY!

I emailed a guy about designing my website today. HeartShadow suggested him, I looked at his gallery and I liked it! So, hopefully he’ll contact me and we can work out a deal.

I am so ready to get my website going… and get the money rolling. (I hope I hope)

Work Work

Kinko’s totally screwed me today! All the Christmas stuff I was expecting in didn’t come in… and when it did, they shorted me! One order of Christmas party invitations was for 200, Kinko’s sent me 98. Another order for 250, I got 124. RAH!

***Novitiate Kicks Kinko’s In The KNEES!***

Anyway- I have to take an early lunch today because I have a meeting at 2pm. So I’m about to leave. Thought I would pop in a blog before I left.

For those of you who DON’T hate me, Hugs & SmoOches… have a great weekend.


For those of you who DO hate me, kiss my ass

Extricating EX

Alright… I’ve had enough. EX is so fucked up, I’d recommend psychiatric treatment.

I had an art show at the TCU bookstore for the month of October… Ex is the greatest artist I’ve ever known… very talented… I was going to link to his art, however I wish him NOT to receive your praise.

So I suggested he contact the people to setup his own art show.

He just found out yesterday that he has the month of January for a show. Yay for him, I was happy and offered to come to his “Meet the Artist” night. My sister even wanted to come. I guess he got a wild hair up his butt, and thought he’d take a peek at my blog.

He paid close attention to my comments about lunch with a pal.

Now he hates me. Here is what he emailed:
First Email:

Well I guess you are getting some now...congratulations you have truly broken my heart now.

Second Email:

Why did I ever have to meet you? Why can't I get you out of my head for good? I do not want to be tormented by you.You set these links up,you know I look.I think it is some evil shit to be posting what you are.
No I do not want to ever see you again,so please do not come to the bookstore.I hate that it ended up like this but you got what you wanted....
I hate you.

We’ve been broken up for 6 months now… what about that does he not understand? He has kicked me in the ass repeatedly during this time… stupid me letting him.

So, he’s finally crossed that line… it’s a rarity that I truly loathe someone, but he’s forced me to think this way of him because of his stupidity and narrow mindedness. I use to admire his talents… now I feel sorry they are wasted on someone like him.

I will sink my teeth into your heart
and lure you with my soft caress
I will tear your innocent world apart
and leave your mind an agonizing mess.

You can hate me if you wish
as I haunt your every thought
But you’ll still long for my tender kiss
as I poison your heart to rot.

For Chris, the last poem I will ever write for you.

RAH!

Did you hear me? I said RAH!

What a day. Busy busy little bee stirring ‘round inside of me.

The mundane robot took over and I ended up getting quite a few things finished and started today at work. I left at 5pm.

TRAFFIC TANTRUM

I was stuck in traffic for an hour and a half! RAH!!! Did you hear me??? There was an over-turned 18-wheeler blocking West I-20 at 820. I did not leave Arlington until 6:30. Remember, I left work at 5… it usually takes me 45 minutes to get home.

To make things worse… I was stuck beside another 18-wheeler… the kind that carry livestock… and it was absolutely disgusting. The horrid stench! I was stuck by this stinky retched truck the whole entire time….

UNO

Played UNO with the nephews. I lost… I REALLY lost… but it was fun a couple of rounds. But sleepiness ended the game. I am so very sleepy…. but I figured I’d blog something…

My Goddess

I performed a simple devotion to the Goddess last night. I’ll not go into many details because young nephew likes to pull up my blog at school in his Cisco class… soOo… I’ll just say I dedicated my Creativity, Spirituality and Sexuality to the Goddess with added reference to the Craft. I feel pretty good about it. I will continue a more detailed devotional during a new moon.

I'm a little Tea Pot...

So, ok... you know I'm not a tea pot, but I may be short and stout.

Ex wrote me. I believe he's trying to make me jealous over this little girl that he used to work with. She's coming over to his place now and letting him drive her car.

Not working... he was the one who had jealousy issues. He didn't even like me going out with my own sisters… didn’t like me talking to the IT guys at work (although that may be understandable, they are all babes).

If a 36 year old man wants to hang out with a 19 year old… so be it. Maybe it will give him the ego booster that he needs. But watch out for the side effects that follow.

Work Work

I’ve got most of my Christmas junk sent to the printers. I’ve got half of the website junk together…. Website completion date moved to December (hooray)… and overtime =). Cha-ching.

Did I mention I like money?

Lunch Was Nice

Had lunch with a pal, it was nice. I hope we can have lunch again sometime.

MUX

Mux is still a very bad motivator. But, I do love it soO!

Yadda Yadda

Turns out older nephew was trying to steal from mom & dad. He had opening the garage and stuck mom’s mini-chainsaw by the door. The issue was my mom and dad have so much junk in their garage that the door couldn’t be opened all the way.

Also, other sister’s man was letting nephew buy his truck from him. Well nephew totaled it Saturday night… which is prolly why he was out trying to steal from everyone… to get monies to disappear.

Other sister is a wreck.

Ex Yadda Yadda

Ex has been emailing me. He misses me. Told me he felt like he lost his best friend and that he keeps thinking about the silly stuff we use to do together… like singing the Big Rock Candy Mountain.

Says he feels like I was his chance to go through life with someone… but then sometimes he felt like we wouldn’t have been happy.

I felt the same. But I was willing to try… and I kept trying when he was too scared to make up his mind… when he wasn’t sure what he wanted… I stayed with him. This last time though… it totally kicked my ass and I just can’t take that anymore.

How could I trust him? No he didn’t cheat or anything… he just didn’t understand what having a partner was… he didn’t understand that we were a team after 3.5 years… he didn’t want to see what we could do together.

I am wearing a huge long-sleeve shirt of his today. I pulled them out along with some sweaters the other day. I donno why, but I’m going to keep them.

The potato-head broke my heart. I doubt I could 100% forgive him… should anything serious come up between us… I’m sure I’d still have this lingering in the back of my mind.

Morning Mayhem

Other sister’s son came over around 8:30 this morning… along with his girlfriend and some other guy.

I awoke to the sound of him stealing cigarettes from my dresser. *sigh*

They were all 3 super stoned on something… I know it wasn’t speed of some sort… but they were truly fucked up. You have to know the history of my nephew… he’s 20 and already as a long record of miscreant behavior. When he was 14 he put another kid in coma- literally knocked the kid’s lights out… if that tells you anything.

Sister was totally pissed, wanted them gone. They were pacing around the house… rummaging for stuff. I told other nephew if he needed something that was within my means to give to him, all he had to do was ask… but not to steal from me. I told him it breaks my heart that he would steal from me before even asking if I would give him what he needs.

Fights broke out, finally other nephew and his crew left. There’s not a thing that can be done for that boy… he’s too far gone… he’s very lost… it breaks my heart, but we can’t have him around sister’s kids, or even sister for that matter… he has the tendency to lose control… black out even, in fits of rage.

What a glorious way to begin the day.

Same ol’ weekend stuff
Going to do laundry today, straighten up my room a bit. Try to reorganize all the crystal beads I knocked on the floor the other day… yikes. That’s a quite a task… hundreds of beads.

Anyway… don’t remember my dreams. The way I woke up knocked them completely out of my memory.

Sister bought me a lovely new Amy Brown calendar… yay! I love that lady’s art.

George George

I didn’t mention that George had 2 teeth pulled from his Vet visit Friday. One was just yuck and the other was getting ready to fall out anyway. *pout* Vet told me George was probably going to start losing his teeth now. This makes me so sad you just don’t know…

His bad breath is gone… I guess it was the rotten tooth. He was such a mess when I picked him up from the Vet… his fur was all mushed up. I gave him brisket and ribs for dinner… yeah yeah- I spoil him… but he’s my baby and I can afford to. I also bought him 2 new toys... a stuffed football and a thingy that sounds like a pig when you squeeze it. Of course my boy loves the football. =)

Miserable Hangover

Sister and I went out last night to Rick’s pub. This man Rick at work is the owner, he just bought the pub a few months ago.



Anyhoo… they had a live band and it was pretty dang good! The played only cover tunes but they were awesome. Not much to look at… but awesome nonetheless.

It’s a man’s pub… seemed like a bunch of young college boys there.

Seven rum & cokes later… I couldn’t see a damn thing! I think I was mostly amusing myself… laughing with sister. Though I’m not sure she was really hearing me cause the music was loud. Sister wanted to go to 8.0 to see if anything was going on… so we did.

Not a damn thing. But I enjoyed the walk around downtown. We went into this club called Vivid and immediately left. Sister said it was a gay club, but they played great music. That they did… it was very dark in there… but there were people dancing. I wanted to stay- but I guess sister got weirded out, so we left.

Walked some more… everything was blurry to me. Went into another club that had tons of people singing I love Rock-n-Roll… sounded fun. Until we saw these tall skinny blondes doing some kind of dance with each other…. Intimidated? Us… ? Hell yes.

We wandered in and around… it was very crowded… again with very young people. Again, we left. Finally, we made our way back to Rick’s pub and sat for a bit. The band was playing again, it had more people there, it was nice. The music was awesome.

Around 1:30am we left and went to IHOP to sober up. The food was yummy… or was I just drunk? The waitress seemed to be amused we were drunk. Anyway, this older cowboy sat at the table next to us… sister was all giddy. She wanted to give the cowboy her phone number, as he was all alone. But she didn’t. She chickened out.

She said I was giving her a look. I don’t know what I was doing… I was drunk.

I woke up still drunk this morning around 7am. Had to pee. Stumbled my way to potty and went back to bed. Then around 9am I had to get up and take my parents dog to the vet.

Bleh… I’m shocked I didn’t vomit.

Doggy Dilemma

Turns out my parents dog, Dodi, had a seizure last night. He’s had 4 in the past 3 months. The poor baby. Anyway… I don’t know what mom was doing, but Dodi ended up biting her mid-seize and she had to go to the ER. Nephew had to take her because she still can’t drive due to her eyeball.

Called to check on Dodi, Dad asked that I take him to the vet. So I did. The vet took blood for testing, checked his throat and his lungs.

Thinks Dodi may have a touch of bronchitis. Only the blood tests will let us know about the seizures. We won’t get those result until Monday. Anyway, Vet said for Dodi to take seizure meds twice a day and some antibiotics once a day.

My Dad needs to call Monday to get results and let the Vet know how Dodi has been doing.

While at the Vet, I was leaving the exam room with Dodi, and just outside were two HUGE dogs. I’ve never seen dogs this big. One looked like a lab type, but he weighed 115! Yikes! The other dog looked like Cujo and was way bigger. The ladies there asked Dodi and I to wait in the exam room until they figured out what they were going to do with these gigantic canines.

Gladly! Didn’t want Dodi to be some other dogs breakfast, as Dodi is a wee tiny poodle mix. Dodi was happy on the drive home.

Back to Drunkenness

Came back home, went back to bed around noon. Did not get up until just a bit ago… around 4pm. Feeling much better, and hungry.

It only takes 2 drinks to make me very buzzy. Just imagine what 7 will do to me… eh.

Dreaming was quite the experience… strange indeed. Yet another version of Texas Chainsaw type happenings.

The story of George

I love my George oh so very much. I had to drop him off at the vet today to get his teeth cleaned. The poor baby… he hates going there.

The meds the doc gave him for arthritis has helped him! He’s back to his usual bully spoiled self! Jumping and trying to hump the cats… silly dog.

Ok… The Story of George

My first true love, Rick, opened my eyes to the world of adulthood. We were together for a couple of years. On our last Christmas together, he asked me if I wanted a dog or an engagement ring for Christmas.

Yes, I chose a dog! Then I broke up with him about a month later. I’m so cruel yeah yeah. I loved him deeply- but he was infatuated with making me look like a Barbie doll.
He literally drug me to the gym and made me workout… while he stood and watched. Then he was pestering me to get a breast implant… I was 20 for crying out loud!

Anyway… that’s how I got George. When I first got him, I use to take off work early just to go home and play with him. He went with me everywhere… even to all my friends houses. If I didn’t bring George with me, they’d be disappointed and ask how come!

He’s been camping with me and traveling with me. I discovered George can’t swim, funny ain’t it, when I jumped off a boat and he came leaping in after me! I had to take of my life jacket and let him lay on it!

Anyway… this wonderful creature knows when I’m sad, when I’m sick, mad and happy! He greets me everyday with such enthusiasm… and when he’s mad at me, he throws his ball at me and snorts!

You just don’t know how much I love my George. He is the apple in my eye.


Had a dream of long ago

Last night I dreamt of Rick, the guy who gave me George. We were the age we are now, tho that was actually 10 years ago. We got back together, but I found out he was just using me and didn’t actually want to be with me. We had moved into an apartment… and he just needed a place to stay.

It was a very strange dream indeed, but I’m not going into details… I don’t have enough time right now…

I wasn’t a little girl anymore, and I didn’t let him treat me that way. I told him that I could take care of myself, I had a good job (in reality when I was with him I work 3 dinky jobs cause the man wouldn’t help me) and that I didn’t need him anymore.

But I wasn’t going to let him use me that way, and I kept all his furniture- then booted him out, the sucker!

Work Work

I suppose I should get to work now!

Blah Blah MUX

Hey! I got bored in MuX today! Hooray! I did some work and may not have to stay late!

Something strange happening to my Blog... I haven't changed any settings- yet it's all screwed up... hrmmm.

Work Work

Mark is a babe.

Temp did several things I told her not to do... very EASY things... like do not save over this document... Tomorrow I have to go over it with her...*sigh*

I need someone who can jump right in and figure things out for themselves... take notes... but especially listen to what I say... no margin for error! Deadlines to meet!

My brain seems like it's being tapped dry. It always seems to happen to me when work starts getting a wee crazy. I have no inspiration… I become this robot… chucking things out without meaning.

No time to slow down… will have to ride this wave out.

Personal ME

Pooh. Sent a picture to someone today…. Why in the world was that so nerve racking? I’m a pretty confident person usually… don’t really care what other people think… hold my head up high and strut my voluptuous self. I donno- I guess I’m feeling vulnerable since EX. The potato head. I miss him- I miss snuggling next to him having his big arms wrapped around me. He knew me, he knew my body… it’s always awkward thinking of someone else getting to know you.

Oh, get over it Robin! *smack smack*
Here I am...

Yeah! I made money!

Yes... I'm late blogging, yet again. I didn't get home tonight until 8:30pm.

I sold $105 in jewelry today! Yeah! I’m so happy… this one lady thought everything was great! She herself bought $90 and I sold another pair of earrings for $15.

So far, opinions of my jewelry are very high- so it looks like my party planning starts! And web posting =).

Work Work

MuX is bad for work. That’s all I have to say on that.

Work is about to get really hectic for me… I have 2 weeks to get our DFW site together… *Goddess Please Give Me Energy!*

I will be putting in late hours… but that means MONEY! Overtime! Time and a half! I like money ya know!

Temp is doing well so far… but next week is going to be the test. I’m going to have to pile the work on her so I can focus purely on the website. I hope she holds up well. She’s now going from 3 days to a full week.

Dreaming Nonsense

Strange dreams lately about people I barely know… there’s this pregnant lady at work… I dreamt that I took her to lunch at Dairy Queen… of all places. It was packed. The fountain drinks were assortments of wine… I had a very large glass of wine.

Anyway… I just wanted to take her out to eat for some reason. She’s friendly enough in real life… but we really don’t know much about each other… other than she’s 26 and going to have a little boy.

She’s the cutest thing… all sweet and girly- very VERY pregnant though. She goes waddling all over! Tehe! No babies for me, thank you!

What a Crazy Day!

Today has just been very strange. I had to get up really early to take my mother to the hospital for eye surgery… I was suppose to get up at 5am… my alarm did not go off… in fact it was blinking like the power went out. My dvd player was on, my cable box was on… it was very strange. Then my hair dryer’s plug had to be reset like it had a serge or something.

Anyhoo… got to work REALLY early… I didn’t have time to put on my face at home, so I did it at work.

Work Work
Work was going along as usual- preparing for a meeting, getting rush jobs sent to the printer… I get a call.

It’s Dad, saying my other sister did not pick up my mom at the hospital yet… they’d been waiting for an hour for someone to pick her up…

I had to drop everything to go pick her up, and when I got to the hospital… other sister had just lefts 10 minutes before I got there! ARGH!

So, I go ahead and book it home- work left scattered and unfinished…

Mom’s good- she looks like a sci-fi creature with this funky eye thing on. They drained the fluid from her eyeball and replaced it with some other solution. Yeah… what I said… Yuck!

Personal Matters

I made use of my time at home by doing a bit of quick work on the net and took George to the vet. He’d been limping pretty badly on his right forearm.

Turns out, my baby has arthritis. My poor baby is getting so old, it just breaks my heart. What will I do????

The vet gave me some sample arthritis meds to try out on him and I take him back Friday to get his Yuck-a-muck teeth cleaned. I didn’t realize they were so bad! Bleh! Poo Poo Breath.

I love my George so much… I love my dog more than I have loved any other creature.

Work Work

Trying to get caught up on work... but MuX interrupted =)

Rush Ad came in late this afternoon... it was due yesterday. So, needless to say it interrupted everything! Including MuX! Grrr!

Personal Work

Need to go to the bookstore and pick up my art work. It's already been there a week longer than it should have been! Ack! Had several offers to buy... but none of it was for sale... heh. Can you believe it?!? hehe I didn't think there would be anyone interested in my art work... at least not enough to buy it... wow... there are people as nutty and strange as me out there!

Anyhoo... two I had already given away... the other six pieces are MINE MINE MINE.

My art is extremely personal and usually reflects my moods, my situation in life. When I share it, I'm sharing more than just some painted picture... I'm showing you the stuff that goes on in my brain... so no... it's not for sale.

Least not until I die.

Ex is still EX

I dreamt of ex yet again. This time he had a newly found girlfriend. A tall slinky blonde, who didn’t seem to have very many noodles in her noggin.

The girl and I were in class together and talking. She was upset that ex and I still contacted each other once in a while. I explained to her that after being with him for 3.5 years, he was my best friend and that was the hardest to let go.

She said she didn’t care… she didn’t want us to talk anymore. So, I wrote ex a letter explaining how in respect to his new love, we should not talk anymore. I wrote that I would miss him and that I hope the best for his life.

I left the classroom for a bit, and came back. She just stared at me. I went home, and found a message on my voicemail, from her. She said she went through my stuff and tore part of the letter out.

Later, I went to a party and ex was there- she was not. I tried to explain to him that his new gf didn’t want us to talk, he seemed like he didn’t care much and had an ugly look on his face, seemingly appalled that I was even talking to him. I left the room and went in the backyard of the house we were at… there was a lovely swimming pool.

Poof- ex and some hot guy were sitting at the far end of the pool, where the diving board was. I had to walk over there to use the diving board. I had a towel wrapped around me and I was in a bathing suit. They were watching me. As I stood up on the diving board, I took off the towel and realized I hadn’t shaved my Bikini line and it was quite hairy! Sticking out of the bathing suit… so I wrapped the towel back around me and went inside, feeling quite embarrassed.

The dream turned kinda funky from there and is really fragmented.

Sick Chick still sick

I still feel like crap today, but I’m going to try not to stay in bed all day… though my body aches for the warm comfy lure of rest. I need to finish up some articles for TC to help keep the candle going.

Anyhoo… should anything spectacular happen, I’ll pop back on and log it… har har.

Sick Chick

I am soOo sick... bleh!

I slept all day... so nothing much happened.

Dreams of a different version of the Texas Chainsaw Massacre.
Dreams of getting a new car.

ER Emergency

I took my sister to the ER last night. She was having terrible pain on the right side of her abdomen. It started after lunch yesterday.

She didn’t want to got to the hospital here in Weatherford… she doesn’t like it. So we drove to Fort Worth to Harris Methodist. The lady at the registration was totally pissy… copped an attitude from the minute I said my sister needs to see a doctor. The cow… anyway sister proceeded to give the lady her information.

The lady asked for her SS# and sister pulled out her insurance card, which has it on there. Sister is not comfortable giving out personal information, let alone speaking it out in front of a bunch of people.

The lady was totally crappy… “Ma’am, I don’t need to see it, just tell it to me”

My sister said she doesn’t want to say it out loud and that it was on the card, then told her she didn’t have to be so rude. The lady started getting even more pissy… I don’t need your insurance card here… sister told her that her SS# was on the card and she could have taken it from there.

Then we all proceeded to yell and another lady stepped in and started being even more pissy than the first lady. Threatened to call security on us…

I said my sister is in a lot of pain, and being in severe pain doesn’t exactly make you deal with crappy people nicely. A little more shouting went on… and the lady called security.
We left… went to another hospital because we didn’t have time for their bullshit and sister needed to see a doc.

We went to another Harris by downtown Fort Worth. Oh my Goddess! It was like a scene for a gangster TV show! It was awful! After being there quite a while, and witnessing things that made me feel extremely uneasy, I had to use my phone to call sister because they put her in a different waiting room, I said let’s go home to Weatherford hospital. I’ve never seen so many cops at a hospital before… NEVER. I thought we were in jail!

After driving all the way back home, we got her into the ER. People there were especially nice. They were fairly quick to get her in… did all the tests, though the tests took a while to come back. Sister is ok… she just needs a good system flush.

We finally got home around midnight, but sister still hurts today. She should have stayed home from work, but she didn’t.

Work Work

I, on the other hand, took the day off.

I've grown Political

Quotes from Thomas Jefferson (food for thought):

"What a stupendous, what an incomprehensible machine is man! Who can endure toil, famine, stripes, imprisonment & death itself in vindication of his own liberty, and the next moment . . . inflict on his fellow men a bondage, one hour of which is fraught with more misery than ages of that which he rose in rebellion to oppose."

"yet the hour of emancipation is advancing . . . this enterprise is for the young; for those who can follow it up, and bear it through to it's consummation.

"Whenever the people are well informed, they can be trusted with their own government; that whenever things get so far wrong as to attract their notice, they may be relied on to set them to rights."

" . . . there is no act, however virtuous, for which ingenuity may not find some bad motive."


My vote does count.

I will vote, I will support and participate in my community. I will struggle, like those who came before me, to make this land a better place to live. So no human being will be oppressed with uneducated fears and bigotry. I will fight, I will educate myself and share my knowledge with those who are willing to listen. I will place myself in your shoes and take a look at what you believe to help form and educate my personal beliefs. I will love you, my brothers and sisters, and I would die for your freedom, your right to choose and for the future of our children.

Belly Aching

I am very sick today… bleh! After lunch yesterday I just started feeling really sick to my stomach… today… I ache all over and am still sick to my stomach.

I came into work though… but I’m not sure I’ll make it through the whole day.

Politics

Everyone is going on about the election and the results so far… it does appear that Bush has it… *sigh* Would my vote have made a difference? I don’t think so…

Family Matters

My nephew upset my sister yesterday something fierce. He wrote a note saying he was running away, he’s 12, and that she’d never see him again. His bother found the note on his bunk bed. Sister started frantically yelling out Tyler’s name. Fortunately, his was hiding under the bunk bed… they have a lot of stuff under the bed and he was hiding behind it all.

My sister was in tears. I guess nephew is just a wee lonely… he doesn’t understand that when we come home from work, especially after a 45 minute drive… we need to chill a little bit. Plus, he gets really upset because no one wants to play the games he wants to play. We’ll play games with him… Scrabble, Uno, etc… but the games he wants us to play are like Pokemon type card games… it’s not so easy for us to pick them up quickly… we don’t understand. But, of course he’s young… so compromise doesn’t always play a part in his thinking.

We love him dearly. He is bright, funny and very very smart. Sister would be completely broken if anything happened to him… I doubt she’d ever recover.

We decided on family game night… but we all have to agree on the game. I’ll probably see if he wants to draw with me more often, and let him use my special art supplies. Maybe we can draw some comic book characters… he does make his own comics.

Web Conference

I forgot about today’s web conference. Eek! Going to speak to some big wigs in Ohio about transferring the DFW website to me… suggestions, ideas, and continuity. I hope it doesn’t last too long… a couple of the people I know who are participating in the web conference talk way too slow… hope they don't chat-type the same.

Work Work

Temp did a good job yesterday. She’s quite older than I imagined. I hope that doesn’t detour her from working for me. She’ll be in 3 times a week for now, until I need more assistance.

The President of the company sent me more pictures of dead deer today. So disgusting. He’s an avid hunter… he has a collage of images he wants me to make copies of on 11x17” sheets… yuck.

Yes, The Ex

The Ex just can’t drop it. I guess it makes him feel better to take little stabs at me here and there. I received yet another email from him… all this after he says he can’t subject himself to my life any more. I know he reads my stuff and it bothers the heck out of him… I just feel like he’s spying on me… not to mention I can’t seem to stop dreaming about him.

Last night’s dream was angry. He completely destroyed a set of ancient bangles I had… he had a girlfriend with a child who completely bent them all out of shape. And he had a dirt bike field in his living room- bunch of young guys doing tricks off the mounds. Eh… I donno what all that was about… but I know I was FURIOUS with him for being so disrespectful to something so precious to me.

I don’t really have ancient bangles… but I’m assuming that relates to my heart in some way. Eh... starting not to really care anymore. Just get on with it!

Nothing Interesting

Nothing much to share so far today.

I received an email from ex this morning saying he was sorry... he just got jealous. Ok... whatever- he was always saying he was sorry.

I love the fall-back time change. Don't remember my dreams from last night.

Working Mondays?

Working Mondays should be OUTLAWED!

Have a temp coming in to help me out. Soon I will be hiring people to fill up my department once more. Ahh... I hope this time I get some levelheaded people.

Hopefully I won't have to fire anyone in a snap like last year. There are some strange cookies out there... that's for sure.