Possibly Maybe PPD
Paranoid Personality Disorder
Symptoms:
* Suspicion
* Concern with hidden motives
* Expects to be exploited by others
* Inability to collaborate
* Social isolation
* Poor self image
* Detachment
* Hostility
* Poor sense of humor
Lately, I’ve been noticing how intense and erratic my sister’s behavior has become. She’s always been uptight and very judgmental… but it’s getting to the point where I am starting to believe she has developed a paranoid personality disorder. Don’t get me wrong, I love my sister to death… but she is very difficult to get a long with. We only started getting close when I hired her as my assistant about 3.5 years go. She doesn’t work for me now, but she still works for the same company in the same building. Anyway… in those 3 years her temperament and attitude has worsened.
She has become so suspicious of EVERYONE, and that is no exaggeration. She doesn’t trust anyone… not even me at times. Everyone has some hidden agenda against her- from people driving on the road to the people in grocery stores. She thinks people are constantly talking about her behind her back, especially at work. She is soOo irritable and angry you can literally feel it pulsate off her when she comes in the room. There’s not a day that goes by without her screaming and yelling at her boyz… and it’s gotten to the point to where they just instantly turn her off, walk away from her or smart off. All these traits are being forced on her boys and they are reflecting her behavior. If someone upsets her she will go off on them- no matter where she’s at… and there have been several instances people have threatened to call the police- or actually did call them.
Everybody is wrong, everybody is conniving and nobody cares. She’s a beautiful woman, I’ve often envied her beauty and petite size… but she sees herself as this hideous fat monster. She holds grudges big time… and forces her boys to hold the same grudges.
She’s also developing an obsessive-compulsive disorder… constantly spraying disinfectant, checking through her food and drinks- not wanting to touch anything. If she finds a hair in her food at a restaurant, she will never go back. She throws away tons of stuff thinking it’s ruined or contaminated because of something minor. We have to live with a certain amount of yuck… especially unseen things that crawl all over us daily… she can’t think about it. If she could, she’d wear surgical gloves 24-7 and make people step through a decontaminating chamber.
I first started noticing her compulsiveness about 2 years ago… but it was funny at the time. I discovered that if you ‘wondered’ how many of an item there was… she would count them in her head and a few minutes later tell you how many there is. I played with that a little bit… One day we were standing outside on break at work and I said… “Wow, there are a lot of cars in the parking lot- I wonder how many there are.” I then started talking about something else and a couple of minutes later she told me how many there were. I would do that with the steps, with things sitting on counters, etc. Of course I always pointed it out to her, and eventually she caught on- but we’d laugh a bit. I never realized it could have been the beginnings of serious personality disorders.
It’s not funny anymore… it’s not just a ‘quark’ of hers anymore… it’s down right scary. She feeds it to her children daily. Her oldest son is 17… he’s refrained from having girlfriends because my sister picks them apart, saying they are just using him, they don’t care about him and that he’s a sucker for giving them gifts or giving them rides. Even their friends get it too… and she doesn’t hesitate in telling these kids that she thinks they are rotten either. Her boys aren’t allowed to talk to our mom or dad. Though there is somewhat of a good reason for that, my mom is a gossip monger and my dad is a chronic pain grouch, but to not be able to have any conversation with them… How was your day… they shrug or say I don’t know. They will never tell grandma or grandpa anything. It’s starting to get that way with me too… They just don’t feel like talking now because sister beats everything into the ground… because everything is bad and nothing is good… why bother.
I am scared for her… I am scared of her to an extent. What I fear from her is her delusions will cause her to cut off our relationship and she will have no one in the family with patience enough to try to help her or talk to her. Nobody else in the family can take her screaming or distortion of things into the worst possible scenario. I have always tried to reason with her and rationalize things with her… but it’s getting so bad now… she just tells me I don’t care how she feels or what she thinks.
I’ve mentioned medications to her… but she is so doubtful that doctors rip you off and put you on stuff you don’t need. Sometime I’ll go into the story of her youngest son going to counseling 4 times for suicidal thoughts and depression… and how she didn’t like the smell of the office so she doesn’t go anymore. He still has the thoughts… he still has depression. She is fueling it and transforming it into a new monster… one far more difficult to control.
I looked up and printed tons of info from the net. One of the best sites I’ve found is PsychologyToday. They explain some things simply- so you aren't overwhelmed with big strange words. You should visit their test page. They have all kinds of personality tests from anger to fashion… it even tells you how long each test is. Here is the link: Personality Tests. Never Self-diagnose... you can only realize that you or someone close to you may have some symptoms- but only through professional assistance can you be certain you suffer from a severe personality disorder and you should only consider treatments with the assistance of your doctor or a certified professional.
Symptoms:
* Suspicion
* Concern with hidden motives
* Expects to be exploited by others
* Inability to collaborate
* Social isolation
* Poor self image
* Detachment
* Hostility
* Poor sense of humor
Lately, I’ve been noticing how intense and erratic my sister’s behavior has become. She’s always been uptight and very judgmental… but it’s getting to the point where I am starting to believe she has developed a paranoid personality disorder. Don’t get me wrong, I love my sister to death… but she is very difficult to get a long with. We only started getting close when I hired her as my assistant about 3.5 years go. She doesn’t work for me now, but she still works for the same company in the same building. Anyway… in those 3 years her temperament and attitude has worsened.
She has become so suspicious of EVERYONE, and that is no exaggeration. She doesn’t trust anyone… not even me at times. Everyone has some hidden agenda against her- from people driving on the road to the people in grocery stores. She thinks people are constantly talking about her behind her back, especially at work. She is soOo irritable and angry you can literally feel it pulsate off her when she comes in the room. There’s not a day that goes by without her screaming and yelling at her boyz… and it’s gotten to the point to where they just instantly turn her off, walk away from her or smart off. All these traits are being forced on her boys and they are reflecting her behavior. If someone upsets her she will go off on them- no matter where she’s at… and there have been several instances people have threatened to call the police- or actually did call them.
Everybody is wrong, everybody is conniving and nobody cares. She’s a beautiful woman, I’ve often envied her beauty and petite size… but she sees herself as this hideous fat monster. She holds grudges big time… and forces her boys to hold the same grudges.
She’s also developing an obsessive-compulsive disorder… constantly spraying disinfectant, checking through her food and drinks- not wanting to touch anything. If she finds a hair in her food at a restaurant, she will never go back. She throws away tons of stuff thinking it’s ruined or contaminated because of something minor. We have to live with a certain amount of yuck… especially unseen things that crawl all over us daily… she can’t think about it. If she could, she’d wear surgical gloves 24-7 and make people step through a decontaminating chamber.
I first started noticing her compulsiveness about 2 years ago… but it was funny at the time. I discovered that if you ‘wondered’ how many of an item there was… she would count them in her head and a few minutes later tell you how many there is. I played with that a little bit… One day we were standing outside on break at work and I said… “Wow, there are a lot of cars in the parking lot- I wonder how many there are.” I then started talking about something else and a couple of minutes later she told me how many there were. I would do that with the steps, with things sitting on counters, etc. Of course I always pointed it out to her, and eventually she caught on- but we’d laugh a bit. I never realized it could have been the beginnings of serious personality disorders.
It’s not funny anymore… it’s not just a ‘quark’ of hers anymore… it’s down right scary. She feeds it to her children daily. Her oldest son is 17… he’s refrained from having girlfriends because my sister picks them apart, saying they are just using him, they don’t care about him and that he’s a sucker for giving them gifts or giving them rides. Even their friends get it too… and she doesn’t hesitate in telling these kids that she thinks they are rotten either. Her boys aren’t allowed to talk to our mom or dad. Though there is somewhat of a good reason for that, my mom is a gossip monger and my dad is a chronic pain grouch, but to not be able to have any conversation with them… How was your day… they shrug or say I don’t know. They will never tell grandma or grandpa anything. It’s starting to get that way with me too… They just don’t feel like talking now because sister beats everything into the ground… because everything is bad and nothing is good… why bother.
I am scared for her… I am scared of her to an extent. What I fear from her is her delusions will cause her to cut off our relationship and she will have no one in the family with patience enough to try to help her or talk to her. Nobody else in the family can take her screaming or distortion of things into the worst possible scenario. I have always tried to reason with her and rationalize things with her… but it’s getting so bad now… she just tells me I don’t care how she feels or what she thinks.
I’ve mentioned medications to her… but she is so doubtful that doctors rip you off and put you on stuff you don’t need. Sometime I’ll go into the story of her youngest son going to counseling 4 times for suicidal thoughts and depression… and how she didn’t like the smell of the office so she doesn’t go anymore. He still has the thoughts… he still has depression. She is fueling it and transforming it into a new monster… one far more difficult to control.
I looked up and printed tons of info from the net. One of the best sites I’ve found is PsychologyToday. They explain some things simply- so you aren't overwhelmed with big strange words. You should visit their test page. They have all kinds of personality tests from anger to fashion… it even tells you how long each test is. Here is the link: Personality Tests. Never Self-diagnose... you can only realize that you or someone close to you may have some symptoms- but only through professional assistance can you be certain you suffer from a severe personality disorder and you should only consider treatments with the assistance of your doctor or a certified professional.
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